totally different

well, its been a while i didnt open diz blog..

am sitting final exams... still gt 3 papers 2 go.. hv 2 work harder cz my brain stuck..!!

during diz exam week, i felt damn sad.. he acts like i didnt exist... allthough i try nt 2 act emosionally bt y he must be like tht..?

gt 1 nite.. i msg him, cll him many times cz we all wanna go eat, atlast he didnt cll me instead he cll others.. cnt he jz cll me cz i'm da 1 who clled him.. nt wanna he pay attention 2 me bt atleast gv a face...

then 1 day, my aunt n i were at library.. my aunt said lets disturb him.. she msg him 1st then i msg.. msg jz 4 fun.. he didnt replied me at all... he jz msging wit my aunt... *sigh*..

he oso didnt teasing me like he used 2.. if there were both of us, he remains silent...

da rest oso r da same.. i think i dnt belong 2 diz group anymore..

one-sided luv..

after few days, i reliazed tht he really likes his ex..
i feel so frustrated.. its nt easy 4 me 2 4get sum1 i like.. he didnt say a thing 2 me abt diz.. i dnt 2 spoil my future jz bcoz of him bt i cnt 4get him..
he seems so happy bt i dnt.. i'm nt being selfish bt *sigh*.. i dont noe..
when i hang out wit him, i tried 2 be happy bt deep inside me only god noes..
*sigh*

diz song juz 4 u...

Andai Kau Tahu Sengasaranya aku

Lagu Sedih Menanti cintaku

Andai Ia Tahu Betapanya Aku

Menunggu Mati Hadirlah Kasiku

Kerna Dia Cinta Dia

Sungguh Aku Menyintai Dia

Namun Tak Terbalas Kasihku

Patah Seribu Hatiku

Tuhan Genggamlah Jiwaku

Tiada Dayaku Menahan Sebak Menusuk Kalbu

Andai Ia Tahu Laraku

Merintih Benakku

Menangisku Tak Terpejam Mata Di Dalam Lenaku

Ingin Ku Meraja Mimpi Mimpinya

Jiwamu Hatimu Tiada Diriku

Kerna Dia Cinta Dia

Sungguh Aku Juga Cintai Dia

Namun Tak Terbalas Kasihku

Kerna Dia Cinta Dia

Sungguhku juga Cinta Dia

Namun Tak Terbalas Kasihku Hanya Untukmu

why...??

ermm... nw a days our relationship didnt like usual.. we seldom talk.. i awaiz silent myself.. i wnt 2 talk 2 him bt i cnt throw a word..
from wht i heard, he is dating back wit his ex-gf.. he didnt mention he's dating wit her, he juz said he's hanging out wit fren.. i noe he's dating from a fren of mine n its true..
my heart break into pieces.. i tried 2 act normal bt i cnt..
2 days i didnt spoke wit him.. da rest were wondering, wht on earth is going on..? *sigh*..
sumtimes my frens blame me 4 being 2 quiet n sumtimes they ignore me.. wht should i do..??

as day passed by.....

at da beginning, i didnt feel anything 2wards him.. 4 me he's only my brother bt later on, diz feeling changed.. i tried 2 deny it bt i couldnt.. da more i tried da hardest...

i'm afraid its only a one-sided luv.. bt i could see he gv me gud feedback..

tot he oso feel da same way 2 bt i dnt noe.. he cares abt me.. after having dinner, he'll cll me, text me.. evn b4 go 2 bed he'll cll me.. i feel like i'm da happiest girl in world...

knowing him..

there's a guy.. i met him through an event.. at da begining we didnt spoke wit each other n dunno hw, we get close.. really99 close.. our day were filled wit jokes.. everytime we met, only laugh appear until da rest of our fwen gt weird.. "dnt both of u hv other activities rather than laughing..??" they awaiz ask tht.. haha... as day passed by, we became closer.. n i wish diz will never end........

cluck2...

well, this is my 1st blog n i dnt know how to start.. hehe..


actually i'm nt kinda person who cn easily express wht i feel..


i like to keep it 2 myself.. after seeing my friends blogs, something makes me 2 write..


maybe its bcoz i dnt hv some1 who i cn really talk.. hopefully through this blog, i'll feel a bit relief..